योगवासिष्ठः yogavāsiṣṭhaḥ - book-3, chapter-52, verse-48

नाहं स्यां विधवेत्येवं वरो दत्तो मयाप्यसौ ।
इत्यर्थेन मृता पूर्वमेवेह खलु बालिका ॥ ४८ ॥

nāhaṃ syāṃ vidhavetyevaṃ varo datto mayāpyasau ,
ityarthena mṛtā pūrvameveha khalu bālikā 48

48. na aham syām vidhavā iti evam varaḥ dattaḥ mayā api
asau iti arthena mṛtā pūrvam eva iha khalu bālikā

48. "aham vidhavā na syām" iti evam asau varaḥ mayā api dattaḥ.
iti arthena pūrvam eva iha khalu bālikā mṛtā.

48. 'I shall not become a widow (vidhavā)' — that boon was thus granted by me (Sarasvati, or divine consciousness). With this implication, the girl (bālikā) had already died here beforehand.

Words meanings summery:

• न (na) - not, no

• अहम् (aham) - Refers to the queen Lila, the recipient of the boon. (I)

• स्याम् (syām) - I would be, I should be

• विधवा (vidhavā) - widow, husbandless woman

• इति (iti) - thus, so (marks quoted speech)

• एवम् (evam) - thus, in this manner

• वरः (varaḥ) - The specific boon about not being a widow. (boon, blessing, choice)

• दत्तः (dattaḥ) - given, granted (masculine singular)

• मया (mayā) - By the divine entity (Sarasvati or cosmic consciousness) who grants the boon. (by me)

• अपि (api) - also, even

• असौ (asau) - Refers to varaḥ (the boon). (that (masculine singular))

• इति (iti) - thus, so, by this

• अर्थेन (arthena) - by meaning, by implication, by purpose

• मृता (mṛtā) - The previous physical body of Lila was considered dead. (dead, deceased (feminine singular))

• पूर्वम् (pūrvam) - before, formerly, previously

• एव (eva) - Emphasizes pūrvam. (indeed, only, very)

• इह (iha) - In this current realm of existence. (here, in this world)

• खलु (khalu) - indeed, surely, certainly

• बालिका (bālikā) - Refers to Queen Lila in her previous, illusory manifestation or phase. (girl, young woman)

Words meanings and morphology

न (na) - not, no

(indeclinable)

Note: Negates the verb syām.

अहम् (aham) - Refers to the queen Lila, the recipient of the boon. (I)

(pronoun)

Nominative, singular of aham

aham - I, me

Note: Subject of syām.

स्याम् (syām) - I would be, I should be

(verb)

1st person , singular, active, optative (vidhi-liṅ) of as

Optative Active

1st person singular, parasmaipada

Root: as (class 2)

विधवा (vidhavā) - widow, husbandless woman

(noun)

Nominative, feminine, singular of vidhavā

vidhavā - widow, husbandless woman

From vi (without) + dhava (husband)

Compound type : bahuvrīhi (vi+dhava)

• vi – without, apart, dis-
  indeclinable
• dhava – husband, lord, master
  noun (masculine)

Note: Predicate nominative with syām.

इति (iti) - thus, so (marks quoted speech)

(indeclinable)

एवम् (evam) - thus, in this manner

(indeclinable)

वरः (varaḥ) - The specific boon about not being a widow. (boon, blessing, choice)

(noun)

Nominative, masculine, singular of vara

vara - boon, choice, wish, blessing, best

From root vṛ (to choose)

Root: vṛ (class 5)

Note: Subject of dattaḥ.

दत्तः (dattaḥ) - given, granted (masculine singular)

(adjective)

Nominative, masculine, singular of datta

datta - given, granted, bestowed

Past Passive Participle

From root dā (to give) + kta suffix

Root: dā (class 3)

Note: Predicate adjective, functioning as a passive verb.

मया (mayā) - By the divine entity (Sarasvati or cosmic consciousness) who grants the boon. (by me)

(pronoun)

Instrumental, singular of aham

aham - I, me

Note: Agent in the passive construction (dattaḥ).

अपि (api) - also, even

(indeclinable)

Note: Emphasizes mayā or varaḥ dattaḥ.

असौ (asau) - Refers to varaḥ (the boon). (that (masculine singular))

(pronoun)

Nominative, masculine, singular of adas

adas - that (remote demonstrative pronoun)

Note: Agrees with varaḥ.

इति (iti) - thus, so, by this

(indeclinable)

Note: Used with arthena.

अर्थेन (arthena) - by meaning, by implication, by purpose

(noun)

Instrumental, masculine, singular of artha

artha - meaning, purpose, object, wealth, implication

Note: iti arthena means "by this meaning/implication."

मृता (mṛtā) - The previous physical body of Lila was considered dead. (dead, deceased (feminine singular))

(adjective)

Nominative, feminine, singular of mṛta

mṛta - dead, deceased

Past Passive Participle

From root mṛ (to die) + kta suffix

Root: mṛ (class 6)

Note: Functions as predicate.

पूर्वम् (pūrvam) - before, formerly, previously

(indeclinable)

Note: Modifies mṛtā.

एव (eva) - Emphasizes pūrvam. (indeed, only, very)

(indeclinable)

इह (iha) - In this current realm of existence. (here, in this world)

(indeclinable)

खलु (khalu) - indeed, surely, certainly

(indeclinable)

बालिका (bālikā) - Refers to Queen Lila in her previous, illusory manifestation or phase. (girl, young woman)

(noun)

Nominative, feminine, singular of bālikā

bālikā - girl, young woman, daughter

Diminutive of bālā (young girl)

Note: Subject of mṛtā.