योगवासिष्ठः yogavāsiṣṭhaḥ - book-3, chapter-71, verse-10

आपदां धुरि तिष्ठामि निविष्टास्मि सुदारुणे ।
अभावमपि वाञ्छामि सोऽपि संपद्यते न मे ॥ १० ॥

āpadāṃ dhuri tiṣṭhāmi niviṣṭāsmi sudāruṇe ,
abhāvamapi vāñchāmi so'pi saṃpadyate na me 10

10. āpadām dhuri tiṣṭhāmi niviṣṭā asmi su-dāruṇe
abhāvam api vāñchāmi saḥ api sampadyate na me

10. āpadām dhuri su-dāruṇe niviṣṭā asmi tiṣṭhāmi.
abhāvam api vāñchāmi.
saḥ api me na sampadyate.

10. I find myself at the forefront of great calamities, deeply immersed in terrible suffering. I even desire non-existence, but even that is not granted to me.

Words meanings summery:

• आपदाम् (āpadām) - of calamities, of misfortunes

• धुरि (dhuri) - in the front, at the fore, at the peak

• तिष्ठामि (tiṣṭhāmi) - I stand, I remain, I find myself

• निविष्टा (niviṣṭā) - plunged, immersed, entered

• अस्मि (asmi) - I am

• सु-दारुणे (su-dāruṇe) - in terrible suffering/calamities (in the very dreadful, in the terrible)

• अभावम् (abhāvam) - non-existence, absence, annihilation

• अपि (api) - even, also, too

• वाञ्छामि (vāñchāmi) - I desire, I wish

• सः (saḥ) - that, he

• अपि (api) - even, also, too

• सम्पद्यते (sampadyate) - is granted (is accomplished, happens, becomes, is obtained)

• न (na) - not, nor

• मे (me) - to me, my, for me

Words meanings and morphology

आपदाम् (āpadām) - of calamities, of misfortunes

(noun)

Genitive, feminine, plural of āpad

āpad - calamity, misfortune, distress

Root: pad (class 4)

धुरि (dhuri) - in the front, at the fore, at the peak

(noun)

Locative, feminine, singular of dhur

dhur - front, fore-part, burden

Root: dhṛ (class 1)

तिष्ठामि (tiṣṭhāmi) - I stand, I remain, I find myself

(verb)

1st person , singular, active, present (laṭ) of sthā

present active indicative

Root: sthā (class 1)

निविष्टा (niviṣṭā) - plunged, immersed, entered

(adjective)

Nominative, feminine, singular of niviṣṭa

niviṣṭa - entered, plunged, fixed

past passive participle

from root viś with prefix ni

Prefix: ni

Root: viś (class 6)

अस्मि (asmi) - I am

(verb)

1st person , singular, active, present (laṭ) of as

present active indicative

Root: as (class 2)

सु-दारुणे (su-dāruṇe) - in terrible suffering/calamities (in the very dreadful, in the terrible)

(adjective)

Locative, neuter, singular of su-dāruṇa

su-dāruṇa - very dreadful, extremely terrible

Compound type : karmadhāraya (su+dāruṇa)

• su – good, well, very
  indeclinable
  prefix for intensification
• dāruṇa – dreadful, terrible, cruel
  adjective (neuter)

अभावम् (abhāvam) - non-existence, absence, annihilation

(noun)

Accusative, masculine, singular of abhāva

abhāva - non-existence, absence, annihilation

Compound type : tatpuruṣa (a+bhāva)

• a – not, non-
  indeclinable
  negating prefix
• bhāva – existence, state, being
  noun (masculine)
  Root: bhū (class 1)

अपि (api) - even, also, too

(indeclinable)

वाञ्छामि (vāñchāmi) - I desire, I wish

(verb)

1st person , singular, active, present (laṭ) of vāñch

present active indicative

Root: vāñch (class 1)

सः (saḥ) - that, he

(pronoun)

Nominative, masculine, singular of tad

tad - that, he/she/it

अपि (api) - even, also, too

(indeclinable)

सम्पद्यते (sampadyate) - is granted (is accomplished, happens, becomes, is obtained)

(verb)

3rd person , singular, middle, present (laṭ) of sampad

present passive/middle indicative

derived from root pad with prefix sam

Prefix: sam

Root: pad (class 4)

न (na) - not, nor

(indeclinable)

मे (me) - to me, my, for me

(pronoun)

singular of asmad

asmad - I