योगवासिष्ठः yogavāsiṣṭhaḥ - book-3, chapter-109, verse-18

सोढुं तामापदं तीव्रामशक्तेन हतात्मना ।
मरणायातिमित्राय कृतोऽन्तर्निश्चयो मया ॥ १८ ॥

soḍhuṃ tāmāpadaṃ tīvrāmaśaktena hatātmanā ,
maraṇāyātimitrāya kṛto'ntarniścayo mayā 18

18. soḍhum tām āpadam tīvrām aśaktena hatātmanā
maraṇāya atimitrāya kṛtaḥ antar niścayaḥ mayā

18. mayā tīvrām tām āpadam soḍhum aśaktena hatātmanā
atimitrāya maraṇāya antar niścayaḥ kṛtaḥ

18. Unable to bear that severe calamity and with a desperate heart (ātman), I made an inner determination for death for my very dear friend.

Words meanings summery:

• सोढुम् (soḍhum) - to bear, to endure

• ताम् (tām) - that

• आपदम् (āpadam) - calamity, misfortune, distress

• तीव्राम् (tīvrām) - severe, intense

• अशक्तेन (aśaktena) - by one unable

• हतात्मना (hatātmanā) - by one whose spirit (ātman) is crushed/desperate

• मरणाय (maraṇāya) - for death

• अतिमित्राय (atimitrāya) - for the very dear friend

• कृतः (kṛtaḥ) - made, done

• अन्तर् (antar) - within, inner

• निश्चयः (niścayaḥ) - determination, resolution

• मया (mayā) - by me

Words meanings and morphology

सोढुम् (soḍhum) - to bear, to endure

(indeclinable)

infinitive

Infinitive formed with the suffix -tum (or -ḍhum due to retroflexion rule) from root sah.

Root: sah (class 1)

Note: Infinitive form.

ताम् (tām) - that

(pronoun)

Accusative, feminine, singular of tad

tad - that, she, it

Note: Qualifies 'āpadam'.

आपदम् (āpadam) - calamity, misfortune, distress

(noun)

Accusative, feminine, singular of āpad

āpad - calamity, misfortune, distress, danger

तीव्राम् (tīvrām) - severe, intense

(adjective)

Accusative, feminine, singular of tīvra

tīvra - severe, intense, fierce, acute

Note: Qualifies 'āpadam'.

अशक्तेन (aśaktena) - by one unable

(adjective)

Instrumental, masculine, singular of aśakta

aśakta - unable, incapable, powerless

Compound type : nañ-tatpuruṣa (a+śakta)

• a – not, un-
  indeclinable
• śakta – able, capable, mighty
  adjective
  Past Passive Participle
  Past Passive Participle of root śak.
  Root: śak (class 5)

Note: Qualifies 'mayā' (implied from previous verse).

हतात्मना (hatātmanā) - by one whose spirit (ātman) is crushed/desperate

(adjective)

Instrumental, masculine, singular of hatātman

hatātman - one with a crushed spirit, despairing; destroyed self (ātman)

Compound type : bahuvrīhi (hata+ātman)

• hata – killed, destroyed, struck, injured
  adjective
  Past Passive Participle
  Past Passive Participle of root han.
  Root: han (class 2)
• ātman – self, soul, spirit, essence (ātman)
  noun (masculine)

Note: Qualifies 'mayā'.

मरणाय (maraṇāya) - for death

(noun)

Dative, neuter, singular of maraṇa

maraṇa - death, dying, decease

Derived from root mṛ.

Root: mṛ (class 6)

अतिमित्राय (atimitrāya) - for the very dear friend

(noun)

Dative, masculine, singular of atimitra

atimitra - very dear friend

Compound type : tatpuruṣa (ati+mitra)

• ati – very, exceedingly, excessively
  indeclinable
• mitra – friend, companion
  noun (masculine)

कृतः (kṛtaḥ) - made, done

(adjective)

Nominative, masculine, singular of kṛta

kṛta - done, made, performed, accomplished

Past Passive Participle

Past Passive Participle of root kṛ.

Root: kṛ (class 8)

Note: Qualifies 'niścayaḥ'.

अन्तर् (antar) - within, inner

(indeclinable)

निश्चयः (niścayaḥ) - determination, resolution

(noun)

Nominative, masculine, singular of niścaya

niścaya - determination, certainty, resolution, fixed purpose

Derived from root ci with prefix nis-.

Prefix: nis

Root: ci (class 5)

मया (mayā) - by me

(pronoun)

Instrumental, singular of asmad

asmad - I, we