वाल्मीकि-रामायणम् vālmīki-rāmāyaṇam - book-5, chapter-26, verse-15

अहं तु राम त्वयि जातकामा चिरं विनाशाय निबद्धभावा ।
मोघं चरित्वाथ तपोव्रतं च त्यक्ष्यामि धिग्जीवितमल्पभाग्या ॥१५॥

15. ahaṃ tu rāma tvayi jātakāmā ciraṃ vināśāya nibaddhabhāvā ,
moghaṃ caritvātha tapovrataṃ ca tyakṣyāmi dhigjīvitamalpabhāgyā.

15. aham tu rāma tvayi jātakāmā ciram
vināśāya nibaddhabhāvā mogham
caritvā atha tapovratam ca
tyakṣyāmi dhik jīvitam alpabhāgyā

15. rāma aham tu tvayi jātakāmā
nibaddhabhāvā vināśāya ciram atha
mogham tapovratam ca caritvā
jīvitam dhik alpabhāgyā tyakṣyāmi

15. O Rāma, I, who have developed an intense longing for you and have long been resolved to bring about my own end, will now give up this life, having fruitlessly observed vows and undertaken austerities. Woe to my miserable life, for I am so unfortunate!

Words meanings summery:

• अहम् (aham) - I, myself

• तु (tu) - but, indeed, yet, on the other hand

• राम (rāma) - O Rāma

• त्वयि (tvayi) - in you, upon you

• जातकामा (jātakāmā) - having conceived desire, desirous

• चिरम् (ciram) - for a long time, long

• विनाशाय (vināśāya) - for destruction, for ruin

• निबद्धभावा (nibaddhabhāvā) - having fixed feelings/intentions (towards destruction)

• मोघम् (mogham) - in vain, uselessly, fruitlessly

• चरित्वा (caritvā) - having performed, having observed, having practiced

• अथ (atha) - and then, so, now

• तपोव्रतम् (tapovratam) - austerities and vows

• च (ca) - and, also

• त्यक्ष्यामि (tyakṣyāmi) - I will abandon, I will give up

• धिक् (dhik) - woe to, shame on

• जीवितम् (jīvitam) - life, existence

• अल्पभाग्या (alpabhāgyā) - unfortunate, having little fortune

Words meanings and morphology

अहम् (aham) - I, myself

(pronoun)

Nominative, singular of aham

aham - I, myself

तु (tu) - but, indeed, yet, on the other hand

(indeclinable)

राम (rāma) - O Rāma

(proper noun)

Vocative, masculine, singular of rāma

rāma - Rāma (a proper name); pleasing, charming; black

Note: Addressed to Rāma

त्वयि (tvayi) - in you, upon you

(pronoun)

Locative, singular of tvam

tvam - you

जातकामा (jātakāmā) - having conceived desire, desirous

(adjective)

Nominative, feminine, singular of jātakāma

jātakāma - having conceived desire, desirous

Compound type : bahuvrihi (jāta+kāma)

• jāta – born, produced, arisen
  adjective (masculine)
  Past Passive Participle
  Derived from root jan- (to be born)
  Root: jan (class 4)
• kāma – desire, wish, love
  noun (masculine)
  Root: kam (class 1)

Note: Refers to Sītā

चिरम् (ciram) - for a long time, long

(indeclinable)

Note: Used as an adverb here

विनाशाय (vināśāya) - for destruction, for ruin

(noun)

Dative, masculine, singular of vināśa

vināśa - destruction, ruin, annihilation

From vi- + √naś (to perish)

Prefix: vi

Root: naś (class 4)

Note: Expresses purpose: for the sake of destruction

निबद्धभावा (nibaddhabhāvā) - having fixed feelings/intentions (towards destruction)

(adjective)

Nominative, feminine, singular of nibaddhabhāva

nibaddhabhāva - having fixed purpose/feeling/intention

Compound type : bahuvrihi (nibaddha+bhāva)

• nibaddha – bound, fixed, firm
  adjective (masculine)
  Past Passive Participle
  Derived from ni- + √bandh (to bind)
  Prefix: ni
  Root: bandh (class 9)
• bhāva – state, condition, intention, feeling, existence
  noun (masculine)
  From √bhū (to be)
  Root: bhū (class 1)

Note: Refers to Sītā

मोघम् (mogham) - in vain, uselessly, fruitlessly

(indeclinable)

Note: Adverbial usage, equivalent to 'in vain'

चरित्वा (caritvā) - having performed, having observed, having practiced

(indeclinable)

absolutive

Absolutive (ktvā pratyaya) of root car-.

Root: car (class 1)

Note: Absolutive participle

अथ (atha) - and then, so, now

(indeclinable)

तपोव्रतम् (tapovratam) - austerities and vows

(noun)

Accusative, neuter, singular of tapovrata

tapovrata - austerities and vows

Compound type : dvandva (tapas+vrata)

• tapas – austerity, penance, heat
  noun (neuter)
  Root: tap (class 1)
• vrata – vow, sacred observance, religious practice
  noun (neuter)

Note: Object of 'caritvā'

च (ca) - and, also

(indeclinable)

त्यक्ष्यामि (tyakṣyāmi) - I will abandon, I will give up

(verb)

1st person , singular, active, future (lṛṭ) of tyaj

Future tense, first person singular

Root tyaj- (class 1, parasmaipada). Syā- suffix for future.

Root: tyaj (class 1)

धिक् (dhik) - woe to, shame on

(indeclinable)

Note: Indicates blame or sorrow, often used with accusative

जीवितम् (jīvitam) - life, existence

(noun)

Accusative, neuter, singular of jīvita

jīvita - life, existence; living

Past Passive Participle (substantivized)

Derived from root jīv- (to live)

Root: jīv (class 1)

Note: Object of 'dhik'

अल्पभाग्या (alpabhāgyā) - unfortunate, having little fortune

(adjective)

Nominative, feminine, singular of alpabhāgya

alpabhāgya - unfortunate, ill-fated, having little fortune

Compound type : bahuvrihi (alpa+bhāgya)

• alpa – little, small, few
  adjective (masculine)
• bhāgya – fortune, destiny, fate
  noun (neuter)
  Root: bhaj (class 1)

Note: Refers to Sītā, acting as an exclamation or predicate to 'I'